Friday, August 24, 2012

Changes Can Bring Fears and New Decisions

The past week has been a series of changes for my family.  My children have gone to a small private Christian school for years and after much anguish and prayer we decided to send them to public school.  To say this mom had fears over this decision is an understatement, but all along the way GOD has confirmed in little ways this was a good choice. 

As we went to prepare for their first days there was a lot of nerves on their part and for my daughter most of all.  It has been difficult to watch her go through this.  While we were getting her schedule and walking around the school I looked over and there were big tears streaming down her face.  I tried to reassure her that it was going to be okay.  Her words were, "One room is bigger than my whole school."  All I could say is, "I know, but it will be okay." You are going to love it.  She had so many fears.  She feared not being able to find her classes, getting lost, not meeting new friends, not be accepted, just to name a few.

My son has seemed to take it all in stride and was so excited.  Yesterday he abruptly gave up on a dream he has had for years of playing baseball.  He has played for 10 years.  To us it seemed so abrupt, but I believe he had been thinking of it for a while.  My struggle with this is as a parent when do you push a child to stick with something and when do you let them just quit?  He was miserable.  He hated the workouts necessary to get in shape and ready to play ball at a high school level.  We have told him for years when he decided to quit to just tell us.  He is the one that has to put the work in for that so of course we are supporting his decision. It was heartbreaking to see him struggle through this.  It was not an easy decision.

This got me thinking about how GOD must feel at some of our decisions and fears we face every day.  HE can see the big picture.  HE knows what is coming. How many times has HE wanted to reach down and tell me, "It is going to be okay, hold on precious child.  I'm here and I know what is coming. You are going to be fine"  As I reflect on how I need to encourage my children, telling them it is going to be okay, you are going to be fine knowing it is hard for them to see in their position.  I hope next time I have a fear arise or have to make a decision that I am unsure about that I will remember this and remember that GOD has a plan for our lives.  HE calls us to do things sometimes out of our comfort zone, but HE also equips us to do these things.  I need to just stand firm and trust HIM. 

I don't know the future, but I know the ONE who does and I know HE is equipping my children for a bright future. 

No comments:

Post a Comment